Mondays denote the start of a new week, a new cycle, a new chance to fix last week’s mistakes. They denote the loss of the weekend, of sleep, of wonderfully bad food.
What better way to realign the brain than to post updates about my writing on these happy/sad days? Opportunity and longing are two things I struggle with on these days. And the night before. Sundays are basically my panic-about-the-coming-week days, so I plan nothing. Except maybe youtube marathons.
This Monday I’m behind. On writing, on health, on cleaning. My life is sliding backward down the hill I’ve been successfully climbing for a good month, now. Positives always have their negatives, no? But I severely hate these negatives.
Writing is the biggest disappointment. I was supposed to have a draft done for Dark as Night Episode 1 finished by Saturday (actually way, way, WAY before, but shhh). And its so not done. Beyond not done. I have last year’s version complete with two new chapters written. That’s it.
So I pushed the publish date from Wednesday to Saturday, giving me a few extra nights to type around a sinus headache and sniffly nose. I’m scared I’m still going to publish a too-rushed version. I basically want the first draft done in two days so I can rewrite and revise where needed the next two days. Then publish. Seems like the outcome won’t be good.
But, I have to remind myself, that the first story in the Shadow Break Universe was kinda rushed as well. I mean, I spent a few months rather than a few days on the project, but most of that was worldbuilding and answering my own questions about the characters and story arcs. Besides, I already have a version of Dark as Night Episode One written. This is a rewrite draft, technically.
Lots of changes though. Hence the worry.
I know the world so much better now. My craft has improved over the last six months. Objectively, I should be fine as long as I put in the work and complete everything on deadline.
I’m still worried though. Will it suck since I’m sick and can’t think straight? Or because I’m rushing through this rewrite draft in two days?
I’m not sure. And if it sucks, I won’t publish it, but I would really, really, really like to stick to my planned release schedule. My Brother, My Blood Episode Two is due March 29th. Aish… what am I doing to myself?
That’s where I’m am with projects. Panicked and ready to hide in my closet rocking back and forth for eternity.
Anyway, I hope your endeavors are going much more swimmingly in life.
And I hope you’re having a good morning, afternoon, evening, and/or night!