No matter the “self-help” guidance I find out there concerning writer’s block or self-doubt in creativity… I always come back to one emotion.
You’re not supposed to be angry with yourself, at least not this often, but who said I did anything I was actually supposed to do?
And who made these rules anyway?
I’m angry with myself and I don’t care if its healthy or not.
Because I never keep going, I never create habitually, I always slide back to bad routines. When I write a few words, all I can do is criticize them rather than feeling proud that I put words on the page.
Maybe its a bad habit. Maybe I’m not an artist. Maybe I’m not passionate enough about my projects.
But I don’t care what it is!
I need to stop whining and actually put in the work.
Yes, it’s hard. It’s so so hard to sit down and slog through three paragraphs of work and have them come out crappy. It’s hard to plan a whole book and not know where to start. It’s hard to look down my goal list and realize none are checked off this late into the year.
It’s hard. And you know what self? Life is hard. Get over it.
Those measly moments of bad writing DO count for something. When you write something bad, it sparks a new idea to make it better. Isn’t that worth it?
Drawing a terrible cartoon person COUNTS for something. Just because the hand is all jacked up, doesn’t mean you’re wasting your time. Now you know how to not draw a hand.
Creating a vlog with nothing but circular comments on your own life is GOOD. You’re practicing being on camera and speaking your opinions out loud. Even if you’re talking in circles, its still content, its still your process.
There are so many things I feel like I fail at. But in reality, I’m taking the necessary steps to become better at that skill.
I need to keep going, keep creating.
For the love of Dory…
Just keep creating.
Hope everyone is having a good morning, afternoon, evening, and/or night… and I hope you Spinners are creating despite the “draft 1” feel to the outcome. It’s a step in the right direction.