Just Keep Creating

No matter the "self-help" guidance I find out there concerning writer's block or self-doubt in creativity... I always come back to one emotion. Anger. You're not supposed to be angry with yourself, at least not this often, but who said I did anything I was actually supposed to do? And who made these rules anyway? I'm angry with myself and I don't care if its healthy or not. Because I never keep going, I never create habitually, I always slide back to bad routines. When I write a few words, all I can do is criticize them rather than feeling

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Quarter Life Threshold

Being the nerd I am about story theory now, I can't help but think about my upcoming birthday as "crossing a threshold." Or the moment when the hero decides to officially embark on the adventure thrust in front of them. Around the quarter mark of a story, the protagonist makes a decision. To go on an epic quest. To finally ask out that boy. To partner with someone with an iffy personality for a project. To ignore the pleas for help. No matter what they decide, it's always a decision, a choice. On Sunday, I leave the first quarter of

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Why I Hate My Job

For all intents and purposes, I have a great job. Great benefits. Great pay. (All of this in comparison to where I was straight out of college. It could definitely be better.) The people are nice. Enough. The work is challenging. Enough. What makes the routine of waking up at 5-6 AM and not getting home until 6-7 PM, of passing documents around in countless emails, of writing post-it reminders for every detail to look for in documents, receipts, and invoices, not great is... just that. The routine. I'm not a morning person or a night owl. My emotional cycles

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